Getting over

Getting over is not a problem. It's a solution. Solution to the denial mode of one's self, to the chaotic mind of a person and so that mind and body which was at emotional war for long. It teaches you to see past your own problems and situations that the world is diving into an altogether different set of issues, much larger than  your own. It tells you that it is okay to bypass your bay and arrive at a later stage in life wherein things can seem pretty differently. More over it teaches you that life is full of imperfections. Its not like the movies and novels that we grew up watching and reading. Its not the bed of roses as it is usually depicted whatsoever. It denotes you to see life beyond all the problems and imperfections towards things and aspects of life which make you as a person more meaningful. It is probably seeking yourself on the divine aspect of life. It does not mean that you are stupid enough not to repair things but it means that you are sane enough to understand that somethings should be better let go. Not that I truly believe in what I am writing right now but it doesn't hurt anyone, does it? And after all why not a bit of wisdom after so many years ;-)

Insomniac

Sleepless nights draw me into the vast void space which I have always been fascinated by but actually never witnessed it to such an extreme extent. And when it’s here, it’s simply terrifying. It scares the shit out of me. Tears have nowhere to go than to fall down from the eyes into the outside ocean. The body has left the soul behind long back. It’s just a mere organismic pool. It all might seem very fascinating to read but believe me it’s an awful feeling. I don’t know about it, but people call it depression. Every single thing has been affected and I am hating it. And above all what makes me feel angry and awe is the fact that I am feeling helpless. And I can’t do anything about it. I mean you don’t plan all the things in your life just to screw them at the end. Or do you? Every single time. I have been trying out hard to figure out the things. Can’t say whether I have been able to do that, but I am trying to keep my cool. I don’t know why and for what, but I am trying to do that. And I really don’t know why. I am psyched.

But I have decided to face it. I have decided to stand strong this time. No matter what it takes. I will see everything with my eyes and I don’t care what cost I might have to pay for it. But I will be there to witness it till the last moment. I have decided to rise up. I have decided to live.