I'll let it be ...

I have got a feeling

You don't wanna talk that talk

Now I know this for sure

Don't wanna do the old-time walk

I am not being mad at you

I am disappointed in my own poise

I cannot express it out

There is lot of chaos but no noise

Probably you are giving it back to me

What I once did to you

Karma is a bi**h my dear friend

It hits you back when you have no slightest clue

The feeling hurts and pinches from within

It seems useless and helpless in this skin

Lot of insecurities dwells inside me

I for once wanna set it all free

I don't wanna push it at all

Coz this is no war to win

If things are meant to be

There will be an ultimate spin

Your happiness is what I wish for

No matter what the cost

You have to be happy and smile

Even if that means I am lost

I am ready to accept the charge

These are life boundaries which I cannot barge

All combined into one thing and set it to flame

All this fuss and shit and I will take all the blame.

Insomniac

Sleepless nights draw me into the vast void space which I have always been fascinated by but actually never witnessed it to such an extreme extent. And when it’s here, it’s simply terrifying. It scares the shit out of me. Tears have nowhere to go than to fall down from the eyes into the outside ocean. The body has left the soul behind long back. It’s just a mere organismic pool. It all might seem very fascinating to read but believe me it’s an awful feeling. I don’t know about it, but people call it depression. Every single thing has been affected and I am hating it. And above all what makes me feel angry and awe is the fact that I am feeling helpless. And I can’t do anything about it. I mean you don’t plan all the things in your life just to screw them at the end. Or do you? Every single time. I have been trying out hard to figure out the things. Can’t say whether I have been able to do that, but I am trying to keep my cool. I don’t know why and for what, but I am trying to do that. And I really don’t know why. I am psyched.

But I have decided to face it. I have decided to stand strong this time. No matter what it takes. I will see everything with my eyes and I don’t care what cost I might have to pay for it. But I will be there to witness it till the last moment. I have decided to rise up. I have decided to live.