In see you in the rain

I see you in the rain

You smile at life but I know there is pain

You defer to talk about it

And I know what it means

At times life is chaos and mess

Rest is all sorrows and sins

I would say you need to sail

But you have you set yourself free without a bail

People say life doesn't stop and should go on

Though I don't believe in it that's how life tricks you at dawn

Stay strong sweetheart is all what I can say

There will be a time when life will be beautiful again

Your smile is precious on this barren piece of land

So try to preserve it in wind rain and sand

All I know is life can’t be unfair to you

After all that you have said and all that you do

I will pray that God bestows his best and choicest wishes upon you

And time will tell you that these wishes are going to be true.

Insomniac

Sleepless nights draw me into the vast void space which I have always been fascinated by but actually never witnessed it to such an extreme extent. And when it’s here, it’s simply terrifying. It scares the shit out of me. Tears have nowhere to go than to fall down from the eyes into the outside ocean. The body has left the soul behind long back. It’s just a mere organismic pool. It all might seem very fascinating to read but believe me it’s an awful feeling. I don’t know about it, but people call it depression. Every single thing has been affected and I am hating it. And above all what makes me feel angry and awe is the fact that I am feeling helpless. And I can’t do anything about it. I mean you don’t plan all the things in your life just to screw them at the end. Or do you? Every single time. I have been trying out hard to figure out the things. Can’t say whether I have been able to do that, but I am trying to keep my cool. I don’t know why and for what, but I am trying to do that. And I really don’t know why. I am psyched.

But I have decided to face it. I have decided to stand strong this time. No matter what it takes. I will see everything with my eyes and I don’t care what cost I might have to pay for it. But I will be there to witness it till the last moment. I have decided to rise up. I have decided to live.

Pyar Karne Wale Hi Kyon?

Pyar karne wale hi
Kyon hame choda karte hai
Sapne dikhane wale hi
Kyon unhe toda karte hai

Aksar log kehte hai ki
Zindagi hasne ka naam hai
Hasi dene wale hi
Kyon fir rulaya karte hai

Gehre sagar mein se bachayi thi
Doobti hui hamari kashti
Lehron se bachane wale hi
Kyon fir dubo diya karte hai

Unhone hi sikhayee thi
Yeh ulfat-e-mohabbat
Aise log hi
Kyon fir nafrat kiya karte hai

I GIve Up !!!!

I give up. I have tried my level best to even out things between us, but in vain. I am not writing this in anger or frustration, but its more of a revelation of myself. Its more of a i-accept-the-loss kind of thing. I really, have accepted the defeat. It has been a long time and now I can no more make my mind understand.
I dont say, whatever happened was wrong or you were too harsh or I am more crappy. Coz I dont want to be judgemental about anything. Its just that I want to kill this process, coz I can't try anymore.
You mean a lot to me, and even you know that, that too in the truest sense. But something or the other has to mess up and there are some past flicks which just cannot be turned off. Which creates a whole lot of nuisance.
I know, you are happy and so be it. I wanted that. That is great.
Dont take me in any wrong sense. And I am sorry for hurting you. All the best and keep smiling forever.

Stay sweet,
Sagar.

Sometimes ....

Sometimes hurt is needed to make you grow,
Failure is needed to make you know,
Loss is needed to make you gain,
Because some lessons are best when learned through pain.