Happy Valentines Day

After all the time of not thinking

Now is the time to think again

All the efforts and time and energy

Was almost about to be in vain

You are a wonderful person

And have been an amazing friend

I love you from the bottom of my heart

And will do till the worlds end

Have a happy and a love full life

Coz you truly deserve it

Its time to smile yet again

Coz its more than worth to preserve it

Nothing more I can think at the moment

Cant find any words to say

I just have a simple wish for you

That you have a happy valentines day.

Emotion'al Atyaachaar

Emotions play a vital role in human being's life. Anger, love, affection, care, jealousy, infatuation and the list goes on. Without emotions a life is just a mere puppet. Emotions define a human being to what he or she is and would be. Controlling emotions and diverting them to the best of your self being is very important but at the same time the most difficult task.

Anger is an emotion which can be psychologically interpreted as being sad or denied and a general tendency of retaliation. In excess, anger created havoc and wrath. It uses up a lot of brain's power and hence has been proved useless most of the times. Anger can be used to the best of you and society. Anger can be converted into positive energy if one wants to. But trust me it is not that easy. Love; the more I say the incomplete it would be. My idea of love is inspired by mother's love. The one which is selfless no matter what. She can bear the pain of any and everything in this entire world to make you happy. She knows kids are going to change once they grow up and might or might not return the same amount of love to them. They might even not stay with parents or even acknowledge their kindness they have showered on the kids for all these years. Life needs to be selfless, if it is selfish it is not love. You love someone and still do not expect anything from him or her is the true sentiment of love. It gives you uncanny spirit and power and a feeling of self-satisfaction. Being selfless also has its own challenges. The person you love might not love you back, he or she might love someone else or even worse he or she might hate you. So you need to deal with it but being selfless in the truest sense can take care of this scenario as well. Care comes naturally if you love an individual. You care for your parents, siblings because you love them. Care is a commodity which makes you feel responsible for someone else's well-being  Jealousy is probably one of the very important emotions. It is the byproduct of love and affection. My idea of jealousy is either you confront or leave it at the bay. Confronting will take that load off your heart and mind. Leaving it at the bay will cause you a lot of pain and a lot of thought process followed by a lot of mental chaos. But somehow it is a sensible choice given the circumstances. You anyways cannot do much of the feeling as I said earlier it is a wasted emotion.

Those were my two cents on emotions. I chose to write it down as I am myself not feeling pumped up. So instead of selecting a hunky dory topic I decided to go for a rather subdued topic. Adios for now.

A sweetheart for me

I can still see you in my eyes

I don't care wheres whos and whys

I can still remember the smell of you

It's still as fresh as today's dew

I see the chairs besides the garden

Where you sat just next to me

Rain drops spilling over me

And you sharing the umbrella with me as you see

When I promised to live with you and die

And you agreed to the same without a why

My world knew no bounds with a smile

That phase was still in time for a while

The flowers chocolates rains and mist

Gives me a shivering chill without a gist

All the snaps and my life was re lived

I was telling a tale with me and you glued

Now that I am very far away from everything

Is my happiness wish to you from the universe and thee

The last thing I would assure you is

You were and will always remain a sweetheart for me!

Aaj se jyada

This one's for you. May God bless you with all the happiness in this world, even mine.

Koi pyaar na kar paayega tujhe
jitna maine kiya hai
puche apne dil se to jaan jayegi
maine sach kaha hai


Teri khushiyo se badhke
koi cheej nahi hai mere liye
yeh sab jahaan waar du 
bass tere pyaar ke liye


Iske baad kisise kabhi
pyaar nahi kar paaunga
teri yaado mein hi
marke bhi jee jaaunga


Tu hamesha khush rahe
yeh dua main karta hu
koi pareshaani tere paas aaye
Usse pehle waha se main gujarta hu


Teri hasee main hi
mere zindagi ki khushi hai
tu jo chahe woh tujhe mile
yehi meri rab se khwaahish hai!

I am happy for you!

They say diamonds are forever
But time and fate waits never
There is certianly a pause in history
This will always be an unsolved mystery.


Today the words appear so clear
Probably because the heart is not near
But I am happy and more than glad for you
May life always shower on you bright colors yellow red green and blue!

Yeh lafz kabhi keh nahi paayenge

Yeh lafz kabhi keh nahi paayenge
Yeh aankhein kabhi bol nahi paayenge
Hamaari saase ruk jaayengi us din
Jis din hum tumse door ho jaayenge

Saara fasaana yaad aayega
Woh hasi majaak ladai jhagde rona aur muskurahat
Jab jaaogi tum hamesha ke liye
Aur hum tumhe rok bhi naa paayenge

Ek din yeh sab kuch chodkar hum bhi chale jaayenge
Firse tumhe kabhi nahi satayenge
Fir chahe kitna bhi bula lena hame
Chahkar bhi hum kabhi laut ke naa aayenge

Happiness is not in receiving, but giving!

Hey sweetheart

I was a bull’s eye for your dart

It’s been years now that I saw you

And I liked u even before I knew

U were kind and gentle

It was me who was mental

Through all these years in thick and thin

We played games with loss and win

Buy life plays the ultimate game

And we can’t blame with anyone’s name

I agree I made u cry a million times

And so I deserved everything with heavy lines

Thanks for being such a wonderful friend

I hope you would think the same until the end

I won’t expect anything from you

All my expectations from you I would just skew

You have got a beautiful life

It shall remain so without any strife

May god bless you with all my happiness

An give your sorrows to me to harness

You will always have a special place in my heart

Until breath makes us apart

May with each coming day you get rid of your tension and illness

And become strong and more beautiful in this process

Keep smiling forever, never vent a frown

I hope there’s never a moment when you feel down

Enjoy every day to the maximum you can

To make you happy has always been my plan

Will stop my funny and irritating lines now

But I mean much more than what I said just now.

Nostalgia

I visited the apartment recently (after a long time) and more than feeling felicitous looking at the advancement, I yearned for someone which made me miss my heart beat. That anxiety shock was jeopardizing. Then I reached the railway station and the past days (or may I say years) of companionship glared through my eyes only to be converted into tears. We accompanied each other in trains not so often but it was special and caring. I liked to drop her to her home whenever we met. Facts of life, or may I say bitter facts of life are always harder to digest in the times to come.


You make every effort, however small it may be, to what people say ‘Move On’ and at times you even be successful in it, but at the end you are back to square one. You try almost all the steps to get over it and try to walk ahead in life. Days pass by and you even start feeling comfortable about it, but destiny strikes at the right time and knocks you down at ground zero, bruised, disappointed and utterly depressed.

Returning from office in the shuttle, cool breeze waving through the hair, shiny glowing posters on the highway, reminds me of the invaluable time I spent in the unknown city. It feels warm from inside for a moment and right at the next moment the heart seems to burn ferociously in ache. Why in life does undesirable things take place when there is absolutely no chance of them being fulfilled? But not all the time is life the game you always wanted to play. You plan for certain things, you change the course of most of the ideas and you are all set to go. It is just then when you are swayed off your feet and off the ground so harshly that you don’t even have time to think of what the heck is happening over here. Before you come back to your senses the damage has already been done and there is nothing much left for you to do about it. The point I am trying to say is, memories last, moments die. But time flies by. The hours of the clock which were, once, pleasant become a harsh reality today. You always wish this would be a dreaded dream, a nightmare, only to wake up and know that it is nothing but a reality. The unknown language of the city, the unruly behavior of the people, the unfelt warmth in the breeze, the chilling cold of the night and an awesome sense of belonging and togetherness is what takes me aback today to shed an unnoticed tear.

Many a times, it is better to leave a prospect unanalyzed and unlooked. For it may get you down, break your heart and bring you back to from where you had started the harsh yet real journey of life. They say ‘to lose’ is the part of life. Then why don’t they also say ‘to gain’ is another part of it. I guess, these sayings were invented only to console depressed people.

Time to get strong yet again. Time to learn to stride without the guiding angel. Time to kick nostalgia out of here, not because I don’t admire it, but because it causes more pain than pleasure. It is better to be like a machine with no feelings, only biological cycles and unnerved intelligence which evolves by each passing day.

The memories are green and will always be. The moments are gone, but will remain in the hearts of thee.

Zindagi jeene ka naam hai ....

Bheeg jaane de aaj mujhe
Aansoo bahane de
Dho lene de saare paap
Ganga nahane de

Chaar dino ka pyaar hi sahi
Use pee lene de
Choti si zindagi ko
Aaj jee lene de

Pyaar jo badnaam hua hai
Use saaf karne de
Uski saari galtiyaa
Aaj maaf karne de

Khushiyaa jo bach gayee hai
Unhe baant lene de
Zindagi ke saare gamo ko
Aaj chchaant lene de

Zindagi jeene ka naam hai
Mujhe maan lene de
Aaj fir ek baar
Us nacheej ko jaan lene de.

Maut agar mil jaaye ...

Main tere paas nahi
Matlab yeh nahi ki main tere saath nahi
Lambi si judaai hai
Matlab yeh nahi ki koi jazbaat nahi

Yun to pehchaan gehri hai aapki
Fir bhi koi mulaaqat nahi
Jeene ke liye to hum jee lete hai
Lekin iss zindagi mein woh baat nahi

Maut agar mil jaaye
Toh khushnaseeb hum honge
Jitna khudse nahi
Utna aapse hum kareeb honge
Iss janam mein aapke na ho sake
Agle janam mein hum jaroor humraaz honge

Tujhe bhula diya .....

Kaali kaali khali raaton se hone lagi hai dosti
Khoya khoy in raahon mein ab mera kuch bhi nahi
Har pal har lamha main kaise sehta hu
Har pal har lamha main khudse kehta hu
Tujhe bhula diya
Fir kyu teri yaadon ne
Mujhe rula diya

- from the movie Anjaana Anjaani

Insomniac

Sleepless nights draw me into the vast void space which I have always been fascinated by but actually never witnessed it to such an extreme extent. And when it’s here, it’s simply terrifying. It scares the shit out of me. Tears have nowhere to go than to fall down from the eyes into the outside ocean. The body has left the soul behind long back. It’s just a mere organismic pool. It all might seem very fascinating to read but believe me it’s an awful feeling. I don’t know about it, but people call it depression. Every single thing has been affected and I am hating it. And above all what makes me feel angry and awe is the fact that I am feeling helpless. And I can’t do anything about it. I mean you don’t plan all the things in your life just to screw them at the end. Or do you? Every single time. I have been trying out hard to figure out the things. Can’t say whether I have been able to do that, but I am trying to keep my cool. I don’t know why and for what, but I am trying to do that. And I really don’t know why. I am psyched.

But I have decided to face it. I have decided to stand strong this time. No matter what it takes. I will see everything with my eyes and I don’t care what cost I might have to pay for it. But I will be there to witness it till the last moment. I have decided to rise up. I have decided to live.

Tera Deewana

Ek pal toh mujhe dekhati sharmaayi thi aankhein
aankhon se gujarata huwa muskaan ka saaya
shaayad meri khaamoshi ne hai keh diya tumse
woh raaj jo main tumse kabhi keh nahi paaya

Kal kya hoga, ye mat socho
tum ye dekho, ki shaam ke daaman mein kya hai
madham madham si roshaniyon mein, dhun pe machalate jismon par halki si damak
lehraati huyi sandal baahein
balkhaati huyi resham julfein
ye ang ang, ye jhalak jhalak, sheeshon ki khanak
sheeshon ko chhute naazuk labj, jinme shaam ki surkhi hai
hirani si vaishi aankhon mein, anjaane se paigaam basein
ye dekhke inko behake to ilzaam kise
in lamhon ke pyaalon mein jitni masti hai
saari ki saari tum pi lo
is shaam ko ji bharke jilo
kal jo bhi hoga dekhenge

Mujhko teri aawaaz se khushboo aati hai
aur khushboo mein rang dikhaayi dete hai
tu jab nahi hai tab bhi tu hai saath mere
milon se chhute hai tujhko haath mere
woh jo teri saanson mein hai ghulein huye
kahin rahoon woh geet sunaayi dete hai
baadal, titli, kaliyaan, lehrein, phool, hawaan
ye sab tere roop dikhaayi dete hain
main hoon, tera naam hain, teri baatein hain
har pal dohraata tera afsaana hoon
mujhko to abb hosh nahin hain
tu hi bata, sab kehte hain main tera deewaana hoon

- Javed Akhtar