Adios 2010

Hello friends,
Today, yet another fruitful (supposed to say so) year comes to a marvelous end. And again, it’s time to celebrate the year bygone and the new year that is at the dawn.

The year 2010 (MMX) was popularly called as the International Year of Youth true to its spirit seeing some youth coming forward in each of the diversified culture. This year saw some major heart breaking and mind blowing events like the opening of Burj Khalifa in Dubai, a devastative earthquake in Haiti which took the lives of over 2.5 lac people, volcanic ash from Eyjafjallajökull (weird name haan) which disrupted European air traffic, Air India flight running down from the runway in Mangalore killing almost all passengers but 8, Spain winning the FIFA World Cup and WikiLeaks becoming public and creating havoc by publishing secret and confidential cases. As US market started to boom up slowly and steadily, this year also saw the European economy slowing down.

Personally, this year had been hard and strict with many turbulences and now it is gone once and for all. It was this year when I hit the quarter life crisis which changed many a things for me personally. I came to know why is it called ‘crisis’. It has taught me and I believe many of us to look forward, not to sulk on the past, to believe strongly and have an uncanny faith and desire in your yourself. Drive a success path personally, professionally as well as financially. So friends, let bygones be bygones, grow over your weaknesses and insecurities, work upon your strengths, get healed of your heartbreaks, inculcate the feeling of love and fondness. Keep learning something new, revive the old, be fresh, be friendly, be flexible, be strong. Make resolutions and stick to them just to keep yourself determined, make promises and fulfill them because it is not always that your tongue weighs more than anything else in the world, look after your health because there is nothing much you can achieve without it, set goals for yourself to keep you focused. Welcome new, welcome the change. Change has been declared to be good :-). But for now be a part of the bigger celebration.

I wish all my near and dear ones and my readers a very happy and a prosperous new year. May you find the courage to step forward towards your dreams and hope they come true one fine day. Cheers and have a blast. :-)

Adios 2010.

Wedding Season

With the year coming to an end, it seems it’s a good time for people to get married. With many (almost all) of my friends, colleagues and relatives getting engaged/married in this period it is, by far, the greatest marrying season till date. Majority of my school / college friends are getting married with their sweethearts and many of my relatives are tying the knot too. Growing to an age of 26 is the perfect time to enter the new phase of life. And most of them have all of it sorted out. Marrying your childhood sweetheart is probably the greatest boon on this planet. Of all the things and times faced and shared together for so many years, marriage would be the ultimate goal. Things might even change after marriage (as they say), but atleast you are lucky enough to reach till this breakpoint.


Going to school and then accompanying them to college and probably even during pursuing the masters degree is quite a time together with each other. You might have had to bear a brunt of staying away for some time during the college or masters degree, but it is all worth it when the quarter life crisis comes to an end and you decide to accompany him/her to the next level in life and start an altogether new phase as the better half. All the quarrels, taunts, love bits, insecurities, wisdom, plans, promises will now get to the next level. Having cleared and sustained so many levels (read years) is certainly an advantage in the relationship. It does not mean that life will cease to be a challenge from now onwards, but companionship gives you that boost and courage to fight difficult times. When you have your better half with you, you are determined to stand against all the odds. And of course the wisdom of so many years of togetherness only adds to the morale support. You feel stronger day by day. It is great when your teenage love changes into a marriage.

With almost everyone getting engaged and married leaves us bachelors in the undying candid spirit of independence. But the feeling of comradeship with your loved one is, according to me, far better than the spirit of independence which cease in its joy with times to come. So cheers guys, congratulations for the new beginning all over again with the person you love. Wish your lives be full of joy and you stay together through the toughest of storms. Wish you all a happy married life.

Nostalgia

I visited the apartment recently (after a long time) and more than feeling felicitous looking at the advancement, I yearned for someone which made me miss my heart beat. That anxiety shock was jeopardizing. Then I reached the railway station and the past days (or may I say years) of companionship glared through my eyes only to be converted into tears. We accompanied each other in trains not so often but it was special and caring. I liked to drop her to her home whenever we met. Facts of life, or may I say bitter facts of life are always harder to digest in the times to come.


You make every effort, however small it may be, to what people say ‘Move On’ and at times you even be successful in it, but at the end you are back to square one. You try almost all the steps to get over it and try to walk ahead in life. Days pass by and you even start feeling comfortable about it, but destiny strikes at the right time and knocks you down at ground zero, bruised, disappointed and utterly depressed.

Returning from office in the shuttle, cool breeze waving through the hair, shiny glowing posters on the highway, reminds me of the invaluable time I spent in the unknown city. It feels warm from inside for a moment and right at the next moment the heart seems to burn ferociously in ache. Why in life does undesirable things take place when there is absolutely no chance of them being fulfilled? But not all the time is life the game you always wanted to play. You plan for certain things, you change the course of most of the ideas and you are all set to go. It is just then when you are swayed off your feet and off the ground so harshly that you don’t even have time to think of what the heck is happening over here. Before you come back to your senses the damage has already been done and there is nothing much left for you to do about it. The point I am trying to say is, memories last, moments die. But time flies by. The hours of the clock which were, once, pleasant become a harsh reality today. You always wish this would be a dreaded dream, a nightmare, only to wake up and know that it is nothing but a reality. The unknown language of the city, the unruly behavior of the people, the unfelt warmth in the breeze, the chilling cold of the night and an awesome sense of belonging and togetherness is what takes me aback today to shed an unnoticed tear.

Many a times, it is better to leave a prospect unanalyzed and unlooked. For it may get you down, break your heart and bring you back to from where you had started the harsh yet real journey of life. They say ‘to lose’ is the part of life. Then why don’t they also say ‘to gain’ is another part of it. I guess, these sayings were invented only to console depressed people.

Time to get strong yet again. Time to learn to stride without the guiding angel. Time to kick nostalgia out of here, not because I don’t admire it, but because it causes more pain than pleasure. It is better to be like a machine with no feelings, only biological cycles and unnerved intelligence which evolves by each passing day.

The memories are green and will always be. The moments are gone, but will remain in the hearts of thee.

Mondays are not always blue

We all have felt the blues while going to office on Mondays some or the other time (probably most of the times), didn’t we? This is because, our life during the weekends is more joyous compared to the weekdays. After a wholesome week of tiring work, cutting deadlines, boss’s tantrums and meetings and presentation’s overhead, it feels great to be on a holiday of two days to take a break; more of a mental one than physical. During this holiday (so called weekend), we try to relax ourselves by watching a movie or treating ourselves, a little bit of shopping, a little bit of household chores and largely by just lying around lazily. And hence, when this period comes to an end we start feeling sad and low and the after effect is the ‘Monday Blues’ when we are about to go to office on Monday morning.

But this is not always true. When weekends start to get boring, when you have no special plans over the weekend, when you have nothing to look forward to, and when all your friends make plans with other friends, the yearning for going to office on Monday becomes the most looking-forward-to moment. You start looking for outlook mails and appointments for the upcoming week and the communicator suddenly seems more interesting. It feels safe and good to be in office doing your usual routine (read boring) work rather than sitting at home idle, sulking over petty issues and giving your little brain a darn heavy exercise. In this, case certainly Monday blows life back into you taking you back on track. That could be just for a while, but yes, truly plausible.

Sirf ek mulaqaat ...

Aankhon mein aakhein dale
Haathon mein haath
Ban jaaye apni zindagi
Bina kahe koi baat

Jhoothe nahi hai
Tere mere jazbaat
Fir kyu nahi ho paati
Sirf ek mulaqaat

Zindagi jeene ka naam hai ....

Bheeg jaane de aaj mujhe
Aansoo bahane de
Dho lene de saare paap
Ganga nahane de

Chaar dino ka pyaar hi sahi
Use pee lene de
Choti si zindagi ko
Aaj jee lene de

Pyaar jo badnaam hua hai
Use saaf karne de
Uski saari galtiyaa
Aaj maaf karne de

Khushiyaa jo bach gayee hai
Unhe baant lene de
Zindagi ke saare gamo ko
Aaj chchaant lene de

Zindagi jeene ka naam hai
Mujhe maan lene de
Aaj fir ek baar
Us nacheej ko jaan lene de.

How to deal with Windows BSoD - Blue Screen of Death

What is BSoD

BSoD refers to Blue Screen of Death (also known as stop error screen or bug check screen or blue screen of doom). It is usually caused by unsuspected software errors in device drivers, incompatible DLL driver files or bugs in the kernel of the operating system. It can also be caused by physical hardware faults such as faulty RAM, overheating of components or over-clocking (running a hardware device beyond its specification limits).

The information about the memory when the system crashed is saved in a file called as ‘mini dump’ or the ‘dump file’. It is usually stored at ‘C:\Windows\Minidump’ folder. This dump file can be used to analyze the cause of the blue dump.

Ways to deal with blue dump

      1. Open up your CPU and remove the RAM stick(s) from their slot(s). Wipe them off with a clean cloth or by an eraser (softly) and put them back in the slots. You can also try exchanging the positions of the RAM sticks provided you have more than 2 RAM sticks.

      2. Download and install WhoCrashed (a free system utility to find the drivers responsible for crashing your computer) from http://www.resplendence.com/whocrashed. This utility requires the Windows Debugging Package (WinDbg) from Microsoft. This is available for download while installing WhoCrashed or can be separately downloaded from http://www.microsoft.com/whdc/devtools/debugging/installx86.mspx. Once WhoCrashed is successfully installed, start the tool, click on analyze and it would display the information about the driver which caused the system crash. To resolve the problem, you can just uninstall that driver if not required, or re-install the updated driver for the same.

      3. Another way to analyze the cause of blue dump is to look at the Windows Event Logs. Right click on Computer in the Start menu, select Manage. In the Computer Management window select Event Viewer. Go to Windows Logs à System. And check for Error type of events marked with red exclamation. The Details tab displays the detailed information of the error.

      4. You can try installing the ‘fixshell.exe’ from http://info.prevx.com/download.asp?GRAB=BLACKSCREENFIX

      5. You can download and install the hotfix directly from Microsoft support site at http://support.microsoft.com/hotfix/KBHotfix.aspx?kbnum=979444&kbln=en-us

      6. Just install this hotfix and forget about anything else - http://support.microsoft.com/kb/979444/en-us

      PS: These ways have been consolidated through various search results and are intended only for informational purpose and home use. These methods should be tried at your own risks.

If you have failed at it ...

If you have failed at it once
You stand a chance of tonnes

If you have failed at it twice
Not trying it anymore would make you wise

If you have failed at it thrice
Its worthless to even seek an advice.

Happy Diwali to one and all ....

Happy Diwali to all you frens and foes
May this day vanish all your woes
Pataake jaraa dhyaan se jalaye
Aap sabko Diwali ki hardik shubhkaamnaaye :-)

 

The unique combination of fire (read crackers) and water (read rain) on this auspicious day, made this an unusual but special day. May this Diwali shower upon you all the happiness and prosperity, wisdom and clarity, smile and courage. Be happy by making someone happy.

 

Happy Diwali to one and all.

Maut agar mil jaaye ...

Main tere paas nahi
Matlab yeh nahi ki main tere saath nahi
Lambi si judaai hai
Matlab yeh nahi ki koi jazbaat nahi

Yun to pehchaan gehri hai aapki
Fir bhi koi mulaaqat nahi
Jeene ke liye to hum jee lete hai
Lekin iss zindagi mein woh baat nahi

Maut agar mil jaaye
Toh khushnaseeb hum honge
Jitna khudse nahi
Utna aapse hum kareeb honge
Iss janam mein aapke na ho sake
Agle janam mein hum jaroor humraaz honge

Arz hai ... Part II

Tumhe paane ki chaah main
Main puri tarah barbaad ho jaau
Tumne agar bichaayee maut hai
To us kabar pe bhi main so jaau

Arz hai ....

Ek baar maut mili
Fir bhi baar baar marne ko jee chahta hai
Kaatil hai agar tumhari aankhen

To har baar shikaar hone ko jee chahta hai

I do understand you ...

I do understand you
How couldn’t I
When you said you were ok
I knew, it was surely a lie

Extreme steps and heart breaks
Wasn’t the you I know
In regions totally unknown
Is where you chose to go

Please don't go
Is what I begged to you
But you didn't listen
Not even a time or two

I know it wasn't easy
Even for you either
Sweet memories of past
Is now what we gather.

It's good to be back ....

It is good to be back in office, after a huge change, for a big change. The communicator seems lively and the mailbox seems to push in more life into you than you ever had. The smell of the AC and the silent noise of everyone chit-chatting all of a sudden sounds pleasant to your ears. After many tiny and bumpy rides, off schedule leaves and totally out of track of project cycles and everything else, it feels great to be on the way. It is still a long way to go, the destination is not yet clear, but only the feeling of boarding a train is pleasing and healing to the heart at this moment.

A hair-cut can lift your spirits

We all have known that chocolates and ice-creams lifts one's spirits when he/she feels dull or sad. There can be many more things to do/say/eat which can work wonders with your blues. One such genie is a hair-cut. Whenever you feel down or depressed, go get yourself a hair-cut. Even if it is not required, have your tresses trimmed a bit. Then may be you can style them a little bit, have a deep head massage or may be even a facial. And then, when you are done you are sure to feel bouncy and zealous.
So try it once.

Words ...

I was just fiddling around with some web pages while searching something and got across a very long and unusual word – Hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia. This word means ‘Fear of long words’. Isn’t it an interesting paradox. Thought of sharing it here.

Its only words, and words are all I have, to take your heart away ;-)

Never expected this from you ...

I called u a bro
And I trusted in you
But you would stab me from behind
This, I never knew

I thought, on you I could rely
With the love of my life
Never thought you would kill me
With your innocent look-like knife

I thought you as a friend
I actually never needed it
But I went out of my way
To do my part of a bit

But there you were conspiring
To deceive me with your sympathy game
I had no clue about it
You should have felt a bit of shame

I can’t imagine
The blunder I have made
Calling a wrong person friend
Darker than the darkest shade

You could have averted
Messaging her when she travelled or fought
But over my tough days
Your relation is what you sought

You have made her
Look so pathetic
With your pseudo smile
And a man so synthetic

Though badly bruised
Would prefer to die in self-containment
To save her all the love and pride
I will survive the mental ailment

Will never forgive you
For what you have done to me
One day would arise
I would have a sporadic glee.

Some rules to follow in life to be fine with everything and everyone

Some rules to follow in life to be fine with everything and everyone.

Rule#1: Never call anyone a bro.

Never call anyone a bro ever in your life. The pain of that bro stabbing your life's happiness is much much more than the pain of not calling him a bro at the first place. So better not to indulge in matters of trust where it is at high stakes just on mere ground rules of faith and friendship. Apart from that, there are some clauses mentioned by Neil Patrick Harris in his book titled 'The Bro Code' which are meant not to be broken. But people around you can be so mean and selfish that they can keep making you sick all the time. So, to conclude, don't give people a credibility which they cannot keep up to with. DOT.

Rule#2: Never trust anyone

Won't be saying much on this, trust is a factor as good as old wine, it gets better and deeper with time. And when it is shattered there is not much that you can do. So either be ready to take the risk of being ripped off into pieces when that trust is broken or don't trust anyone at all.

Rule#3: Do not plan extensively.

Do plan things in your life but not to an extent that it starts hurting you. 100% planning is something that is a hypothesis. So be bold enough to take life as it comes sometimes. Because there are times when you cannot argue or question to life, like 'Why me?' or 'What wrong did I do?' And life has its own ways of dealing with you anyways, so better be off the hook.

I think that is enough gyaan for a lazy Sunday morning for more than half of the people in hangover, half of them who don't really care about what is going on, and merely a countable number of people who really do live a clean-conscience life.

Cheers.

I will never forgive you

I will never forgive you
For what you have done to me
By breaking my faith and trust
You have mocked at my destiny

I have been shattered into pieces
And the pain is still getting worse
Did not expect this from you
My life is becoming full of curse

Helpless is now what I feel
For the condition that I am in
I really want to give it to you
But I cannot be that mean

You were right, time heals everything
And it will heal even my sorrow
Today I am hurt and sad because of you
But I would be happy again tomorrow.

Mini Saga #1 - Happiness

First let me tell you guys what a Mini Saga is. A mini saga is a story told in exactly 50 words. Not 49 or 51 but exactly 50. They are also called as microstories or ultra-shorts. The most important part is, it should tell a story or a lesson.
So, I am starting my own series of mini sagas here on my blog. Here is the first one for you on ‘Happiness’. Probably too far-fethced a word for me as of now, but its ok.

"I craved for happiness. I waited for long, yearned desperately, fought over emotions, cried a lot, pleaded, begged, argued, quarreled. But in vain. That’s when I realized that happiness is only a state of mind. You are happy if you think you are happy, else you can never be happy."