Happy Valentines Day

After all the time of not thinking

Now is the time to think again

All the efforts and time and energy

Was almost about to be in vain

You are a wonderful person

And have been an amazing friend

I love you from the bottom of my heart

And will do till the worlds end

Have a happy and a love full life

Coz you truly deserve it

Its time to smile yet again

Coz its more than worth to preserve it

Nothing more I can think at the moment

Cant find any words to say

I just have a simple wish for you

That you have a happy valentines day.

Time

Time is an eternal factor. Not the only one but most certainly the major one. One can manage time to the best of one's ability. But there comes a time when it takes a toll on you. And we are not just talking about health issues here. We are talking about the lost touch with your partner, the lost call back at home, a lost chat with ur sister discussing the wedding preparations, lost conversations with your friends which were very dear to you and probably still are. At times a feeling goes across that you don't care but that's so not true. If only your heart could speak you would have narrated the entire world to them. But said cannot be unsaid, done cannot be undone and you find yourself in a fix definitely regretting what you did or say or many a times did not do or did not say. This can be so tricky that you can't even be sorry for this as this would have gone so deep in chaos that its too difficult to even start sorting it out. And not to forget that there are hundreds of other things in ur life which are your priority for now which u cant ignore. Its all a self realization that you are in a deep mess. Time to get some things straight and realising that some things go beyond time and its good to treasure them before they wear off.

I Believe

I believe in Him
I believe in mom and dad
I believe in you
I believe in me
I believe if there are gonna be problems there are gonna be solutions
I believe
I do

The ageing factor

I have realized that at this age I'm the most uncertain and undecided of things in my life than I ever was. I was never this way. I had planned everything and I always knew what I wanted to do with myself and my life. But now that I am growing up I don't know yet. Feels weird because if anything, I should have known better. But no, I don't know if its midlife crisis or just a phase in life and it kind of scares me at times. I don't know if i should give it sometime and it would settle automatically or what. But I think its high time to figure things and sort them out. I can no more blame it on others or age or situations. I have to take the ownness and do something about it. My confidence seems to be at an all time low. Things which I am good at don't make me happy anymore. I don't love learning new things anymore. And everything combined is taking a toll on me. Stress is at an all time high and I don't know if its valid or not or I am just making a fuss out of it. People I have ever loved love someone else or planning to love someone else and I don't know how and what to do about it. There's a lot of chaos inside the tiny little gray matter and the only thing that is keeping it from exploding is the lesson of ignorance, which I know is bad and a time will come where I will have to find answers to all those hidden questions and more over accept all of them. Life is becoming unusual and unpredictable and I don't know what to do.

Getting over

Getting over is not a problem. It's a solution. Solution to the denial mode of one's self, to the chaotic mind of a person and so that mind and body which was at emotional war for long. It teaches you to see past your own problems and situations that the world is diving into an altogether different set of issues, much larger than  your own. It tells you that it is okay to bypass your bay and arrive at a later stage in life wherein things can seem pretty differently. More over it teaches you that life is full of imperfections. Its not like the movies and novels that we grew up watching and reading. Its not the bed of roses as it is usually depicted whatsoever. It denotes you to see life beyond all the problems and imperfections towards things and aspects of life which make you as a person more meaningful. It is probably seeking yourself on the divine aspect of life. It does not mean that you are stupid enough not to repair things but it means that you are sane enough to understand that somethings should be better let go. Not that I truly believe in what I am writing right now but it doesn't hurt anyone, does it? And after all why not a bit of wisdom after so many years ;-)

Happy Birthday Arjun

Thanks for inviting me for the occasion
The place was an awesome selection
You both looked marvellous together
There was nothing for the guests to bother
Everything was taken care of in miniature
Everyone had a ball including every creature
Arjun looked cute and handsome as always
Very soon time will tell a tale as it always says
Here's me wishing a very happy birthday to Arjun again
May he grow wise talented handsome and sane.

Time to grow up

Its been a long, real long time staying and feeling kiddish. Now, its time to grow up.