I Believe

I believe in Him
I believe in mom and dad
I believe in you
I believe in me
I believe if there are gonna be problems there are gonna be solutions
I believe
I do

The ageing factor

I have realized that at this age I'm the most uncertain and undecided of things in my life than I ever was. I was never this way. I had planned everything and I always knew what I wanted to do with myself and my life. But now that I am growing up I don't know yet. Feels weird because if anything, I should have known better. But no, I don't know if its midlife crisis or just a phase in life and it kind of scares me at times. I don't know if i should give it sometime and it would settle automatically or what. But I think its high time to figure things and sort them out. I can no more blame it on others or age or situations. I have to take the ownness and do something about it. My confidence seems to be at an all time low. Things which I am good at don't make me happy anymore. I don't love learning new things anymore. And everything combined is taking a toll on me. Stress is at an all time high and I don't know if its valid or not or I am just making a fuss out of it. People I have ever loved love someone else or planning to love someone else and I don't know how and what to do about it. There's a lot of chaos inside the tiny little gray matter and the only thing that is keeping it from exploding is the lesson of ignorance, which I know is bad and a time will come where I will have to find answers to all those hidden questions and more over accept all of them. Life is becoming unusual and unpredictable and I don't know what to do.

Getting over

Getting over is not a problem. It's a solution. Solution to the denial mode of one's self, to the chaotic mind of a person and so that mind and body which was at emotional war for long. It teaches you to see past your own problems and situations that the world is diving into an altogether different set of issues, much larger than  your own. It tells you that it is okay to bypass your bay and arrive at a later stage in life wherein things can seem pretty differently. More over it teaches you that life is full of imperfections. Its not like the movies and novels that we grew up watching and reading. Its not the bed of roses as it is usually depicted whatsoever. It denotes you to see life beyond all the problems and imperfections towards things and aspects of life which make you as a person more meaningful. It is probably seeking yourself on the divine aspect of life. It does not mean that you are stupid enough not to repair things but it means that you are sane enough to understand that somethings should be better let go. Not that I truly believe in what I am writing right now but it doesn't hurt anyone, does it? And after all why not a bit of wisdom after so many years ;-)

Happy Birthday Arjun

Thanks for inviting me for the occasion
The place was an awesome selection
You both looked marvellous together
There was nothing for the guests to bother
Everything was taken care of in miniature
Everyone had a ball including every creature
Arjun looked cute and handsome as always
Very soon time will tell a tale as it always says
Here's me wishing a very happy birthday to Arjun again
May he grow wise talented handsome and sane.

Time to grow up

Its been a long, real long time staying and feeling kiddish. Now, its time to grow up.

There is a lot that needs to be done

There is a lot we can change

There is a lot we can process

There is a lot we have to see

And there is a lot we can foresee.

There are still avenues undisclosed

There are still inventions to be shown

There are still issues to be solved

There are still problems to be talked.

There is still performance to be improved

There is still a destiny to be faced

There is still a fate to be written

There is still confidence to be gotten.

There is still perfection to be improved

There is still ideology to be sensed

There is a lot that needs to be done

Until the only life before it’s gone.

In see you in the rain

I see you in the rain

You smile at life but I know there is pain

You defer to talk about it

And I know what it means

At times life is chaos and mess

Rest is all sorrows and sins

I would say you need to sail

But you have you set yourself free without a bail

People say life doesn't stop and should go on

Though I don't believe in it that's how life tricks you at dawn

Stay strong sweetheart is all what I can say

There will be a time when life will be beautiful again

Your smile is precious on this barren piece of land

So try to preserve it in wind rain and sand

All I know is life can’t be unfair to you

After all that you have said and all that you do

I will pray that God bestows his best and choicest wishes upon you

And time will tell you that these wishes are going to be true.

I'll let it be ...

I have got a feeling

You don't wanna talk that talk

Now I know this for sure

Don't wanna do the old-time walk

I am not being mad at you

I am disappointed in my own poise

I cannot express it out

There is lot of chaos but no noise

Probably you are giving it back to me

What I once did to you

Karma is a bi**h my dear friend

It hits you back when you have no slightest clue

The feeling hurts and pinches from within

It seems useless and helpless in this skin

Lot of insecurities dwells inside me

I for once wanna set it all free

I don't wanna push it at all

Coz this is no war to win

If things are meant to be

There will be an ultimate spin

Your happiness is what I wish for

No matter what the cost

You have to be happy and smile

Even if that means I am lost

I am ready to accept the charge

These are life boundaries which I cannot barge

All combined into one thing and set it to flame

All this fuss and shit and I will take all the blame.

Traveller's Mind

Travelling is inspirational and it influences you in various ways. It has profound effect not only on body but on mind and soul as well. You get a chance to see the unusual and non-monotonous. I would urge everyone to travel a lot when time and body allows. Go and visit new places, meet new people, see new things, be a part of new cultures. You will be amazed by the way people think, the way they act and see things in different ways. Eat new types of food, feel their pain and challenges, understand their economy and politics, use their transportation, read their newspapers. It is a heavenly feeling. You will be a changed person once you return. It allows you to get out of your normal comfort zone and see life and everything else at an altogether different tangent. You understand the emotions a lot deeper, you understand yourself a lot clearer. The confusions that you might have had for ages are gone and now you know what you exactly desire. It helps your brains to be flushed out and body to be sloshed out so that when you come back you can revive an altogether different and new you. You can start afresh. It brings the various faces of people in front of you. You get to know people whom you never knew and you get to know the real faces of people whom you always knew and once admired. It’s magical. It’s divine. The glooming lights of the city's night life make a permanent place in your heart and mind and you kind of fall in love with the city. Not because it is one of the most beautiful cities you have ever seen but for the experience it endows upon you. Once you are back to the basics you exactly know what amendments you need to make or what things you need to learn new. You start knowing yourself a little more than you ever had. Back to the basics and waiting for the next adventure. Adios.

Emotion'al Atyaachaar

Emotions play a vital role in human being's life. Anger, love, affection, care, jealousy, infatuation and the list goes on. Without emotions a life is just a mere puppet. Emotions define a human being to what he or she is and would be. Controlling emotions and diverting them to the best of your self being is very important but at the same time the most difficult task.

Anger is an emotion which can be psychologically interpreted as being sad or denied and a general tendency of retaliation. In excess, anger created havoc and wrath. It uses up a lot of brain's power and hence has been proved useless most of the times. Anger can be used to the best of you and society. Anger can be converted into positive energy if one wants to. But trust me it is not that easy. Love; the more I say the incomplete it would be. My idea of love is inspired by mother's love. The one which is selfless no matter what. She can bear the pain of any and everything in this entire world to make you happy. She knows kids are going to change once they grow up and might or might not return the same amount of love to them. They might even not stay with parents or even acknowledge their kindness they have showered on the kids for all these years. Life needs to be selfless, if it is selfish it is not love. You love someone and still do not expect anything from him or her is the true sentiment of love. It gives you uncanny spirit and power and a feeling of self-satisfaction. Being selfless also has its own challenges. The person you love might not love you back, he or she might love someone else or even worse he or she might hate you. So you need to deal with it but being selfless in the truest sense can take care of this scenario as well. Care comes naturally if you love an individual. You care for your parents, siblings because you love them. Care is a commodity which makes you feel responsible for someone else's well-being  Jealousy is probably one of the very important emotions. It is the byproduct of love and affection. My idea of jealousy is either you confront or leave it at the bay. Confronting will take that load off your heart and mind. Leaving it at the bay will cause you a lot of pain and a lot of thought process followed by a lot of mental chaos. But somehow it is a sensible choice given the circumstances. You anyways cannot do much of the feeling as I said earlier it is a wasted emotion.

Those were my two cents on emotions. I chose to write it down as I am myself not feeling pumped up. So instead of selecting a hunky dory topic I decided to go for a rather subdued topic. Adios for now.

Time is the best medicine

Time is the best medicine God has created. No science can beat it. It has got the power to heal the harshest and deepest of all scars and bruises. But at the same time it is the most difficult medicine to imbibe. The moment at which you need time to start its action is such that you don't have much time to ponder upon its magic. The feeling of restlessness and incompleteness from within is killing and chaotic. You just want and need to sort it out then and there even though you are not equipped with all ammunition to cope up with its repercussions. But life is not always what you wanted it to be. And if you ask me life is never what you wanted it to be. The only thing possible at such times of desperate need is wait and relax and let time take its stroll. The most difficult of things to do but the only sane thing to do. Slowly time works in its own miraculous ways to heal any and everything. This can be in various ways. A plausible revenge, changing your thought process and hence your personality, changing the involved parties ambitions, giving you a totally new and different tangent to think upon, etc. There are a lot of varieties to it, you would never know. Just give it sometime and everything is going to be okay soon.

A true wish just for you

When the sun goes down tonight
There is gonna be a divine light
The day that comes then
Will never be the same again

Life is gonna take care of you
Coz you are one of the choicest few
Cherish the moments you have lived and will be
We are here to make memories which we will foresee

Smile is the single simplest thing in this universe
Yet its so difficult and rare
It can never fade back in dark
Gotta make it visible with a glare

This and every coming year
May bring peace and happiness to you
Coz you more than deserve it
And I will pray that these wishes come true!

It ain't no fun

Not every war needs to be fought
Sometimes it is better to quit
Not for the fear of losing
But it ain't no fun to win with them.

Life is better

Life can get better only if you wish to
Happiness is only a state of mind
Smiling is not that tough after all
You gotta learn to sail the rain, sun and the wind.

Happy New Year - 2013

Hello folks,

Here is me wishing one and all a very happy, successful and a peaceful New Year 2013. Its my plan to revive this blog page in this coming year. Thanks for all the inspiration and teaching me to believe in 'never say never' Chiku.

While the new year brings a whole set of new challenges and issues, let us all try to look at it with hope. Let us try to get things done which you have only dreamt of. Let us try to achieve something - personally, professionally or financially. Let us try to make a difference however small it is. Let us give life another chance to get best at us. Let us strive even harder for a better self being and a for a better society.

More to come in coming days.

Before I sign off:
That's why we love life and we hate it too
It brings us all joys and sorrows no matter why, where and who
Unpredictability is the quality; if you understand its better
And one last thing to remember - never say never.