Arz hai ... Part II

Tumhe paane ki chaah main
Main puri tarah barbaad ho jaau
Tumne agar bichaayee maut hai
To us kabar pe bhi main so jaau

Arz hai ....

Ek baar maut mili
Fir bhi baar baar marne ko jee chahta hai
Kaatil hai agar tumhari aankhen

To har baar shikaar hone ko jee chahta hai

I do understand you ...

I do understand you
How couldn’t I
When you said you were ok
I knew, it was surely a lie

Extreme steps and heart breaks
Wasn’t the you I know
In regions totally unknown
Is where you chose to go

Please don't go
Is what I begged to you
But you didn't listen
Not even a time or two

I know it wasn't easy
Even for you either
Sweet memories of past
Is now what we gather.

It's good to be back ....

It is good to be back in office, after a huge change, for a big change. The communicator seems lively and the mailbox seems to push in more life into you than you ever had. The smell of the AC and the silent noise of everyone chit-chatting all of a sudden sounds pleasant to your ears. After many tiny and bumpy rides, off schedule leaves and totally out of track of project cycles and everything else, it feels great to be on the way. It is still a long way to go, the destination is not yet clear, but only the feeling of boarding a train is pleasing and healing to the heart at this moment.

A hair-cut can lift your spirits

We all have known that chocolates and ice-creams lifts one's spirits when he/she feels dull or sad. There can be many more things to do/say/eat which can work wonders with your blues. One such genie is a hair-cut. Whenever you feel down or depressed, go get yourself a hair-cut. Even if it is not required, have your tresses trimmed a bit. Then may be you can style them a little bit, have a deep head massage or may be even a facial. And then, when you are done you are sure to feel bouncy and zealous.
So try it once.

Words ...

I was just fiddling around with some web pages while searching something and got across a very long and unusual word – Hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia. This word means ‘Fear of long words’. Isn’t it an interesting paradox. Thought of sharing it here.

Its only words, and words are all I have, to take your heart away ;-)

Never expected this from you ...

I called u a bro
And I trusted in you
But you would stab me from behind
This, I never knew

I thought, on you I could rely
With the love of my life
Never thought you would kill me
With your innocent look-like knife

I thought you as a friend
I actually never needed it
But I went out of my way
To do my part of a bit

But there you were conspiring
To deceive me with your sympathy game
I had no clue about it
You should have felt a bit of shame

I can’t imagine
The blunder I have made
Calling a wrong person friend
Darker than the darkest shade

You could have averted
Messaging her when she travelled or fought
But over my tough days
Your relation is what you sought

You have made her
Look so pathetic
With your pseudo smile
And a man so synthetic

Though badly bruised
Would prefer to die in self-containment
To save her all the love and pride
I will survive the mental ailment

Will never forgive you
For what you have done to me
One day would arise
I would have a sporadic glee.

Some rules to follow in life to be fine with everything and everyone

Some rules to follow in life to be fine with everything and everyone.

Rule#1: Never call anyone a bro.

Never call anyone a bro ever in your life. The pain of that bro stabbing your life's happiness is much much more than the pain of not calling him a bro at the first place. So better not to indulge in matters of trust where it is at high stakes just on mere ground rules of faith and friendship. Apart from that, there are some clauses mentioned by Neil Patrick Harris in his book titled 'The Bro Code' which are meant not to be broken. But people around you can be so mean and selfish that they can keep making you sick all the time. So, to conclude, don't give people a credibility which they cannot keep up to with. DOT.

Rule#2: Never trust anyone

Won't be saying much on this, trust is a factor as good as old wine, it gets better and deeper with time. And when it is shattered there is not much that you can do. So either be ready to take the risk of being ripped off into pieces when that trust is broken or don't trust anyone at all.

Rule#3: Do not plan extensively.

Do plan things in your life but not to an extent that it starts hurting you. 100% planning is something that is a hypothesis. So be bold enough to take life as it comes sometimes. Because there are times when you cannot argue or question to life, like 'Why me?' or 'What wrong did I do?' And life has its own ways of dealing with you anyways, so better be off the hook.

I think that is enough gyaan for a lazy Sunday morning for more than half of the people in hangover, half of them who don't really care about what is going on, and merely a countable number of people who really do live a clean-conscience life.

Cheers.

I will never forgive you

I will never forgive you
For what you have done to me
By breaking my faith and trust
You have mocked at my destiny

I have been shattered into pieces
And the pain is still getting worse
Did not expect this from you
My life is becoming full of curse

Helpless is now what I feel
For the condition that I am in
I really want to give it to you
But I cannot be that mean

You were right, time heals everything
And it will heal even my sorrow
Today I am hurt and sad because of you
But I would be happy again tomorrow.

Mini Saga #1 - Happiness

First let me tell you guys what a Mini Saga is. A mini saga is a story told in exactly 50 words. Not 49 or 51 but exactly 50. They are also called as microstories or ultra-shorts. The most important part is, it should tell a story or a lesson.
So, I am starting my own series of mini sagas here on my blog. Here is the first one for you on ‘Happiness’. Probably too far-fethced a word for me as of now, but its ok.

"I craved for happiness. I waited for long, yearned desperately, fought over emotions, cried a lot, pleaded, begged, argued, quarreled. But in vain. That’s when I realized that happiness is only a state of mind. You are happy if you think you are happy, else you can never be happy."

Happiness

Leopold was awesome.
Bought Senheisser HD 202, and it is awesome. Sounds like the Dj is singing right in your ears. Especially made for Dj's it is truly a masterpiece with huge bass support for Rock, House and Trance songs.
Then bought 6-7 novels (Indian authors) so that I could kill my boredom in train while travelling to and from office. All in all a cool beginning to the long weekend.
Happy birthday sweetheart. You don't know that, but you mean a lot to me.
Peace out for now.

-Dated back to 15th Oct 2010.

Tolerating Indifference





There is a saying that you have to fake it before you make it. But with people, this is so not true. Most of the people can take criticism and even rejection at times, but not ignorance. Being indifferent to others is the most grave mistake you could ever commit. For it not only hurts the other person’s sentiments, but also his/her self respect. People want to be attended and cared for. Give it before you can ask for it. For indifference can hurt wreckages so deep that it becomes almost impossible to mend them at the later stage. If you have problems giving attention at the moment, discuss it. A problem is best solved when it is small. It rips off the entire essence you have put into it till date when you try to resolve it as it grows. Kill the evil when its less dangerous, or it might kill you as it grows.

Weirdo ....

All the Infy gang decided to meet up sometime in Mumbai. We all had loads of get-togethers outside Mumbai, but we never actually met up in Mumbai (unless in emergencies). So we decided to meet at a place in Kandivali. Having stayed in Mumbai for my entire life (except for 2 years of working in Infosys), I had to be accustomed to train travelling. But I wasn’t. Train travel wasn’t my cup of tea. And the best of all, I never actually had to travel by train. My college was near from my home which enabled me to take a bike to college every day.

We were 8 of us, most of the people from western line (and hence the decision of meeting in Kandivali). I was feeling nauseated by the feeling of coming so far away in a not so better condition. I wasn’t keeping well from days but then too had to turn up because I did not want to go against the code of friendship (which says never say no to anything friends decide). So I came here against all odds and as usual, things started getting bad for me.

I reached the platform when Andy came in. No one else had turned up till then. Andy told me that some of our friends were waiting on the other bridge. So we planned to go there. I followed Andy as he was a localite. We preferred to cross the tracks to reach the bridge on the other side as that was the fastest and a more feasible option than to having cross half of the world to reach the other side. We started to cross the tracks and the distance we had to cover was approximately 600 meters. I was very petrified of crossing the tracks not because I am afraid of doing that, but because I was feeling giddiness and wasn’t in a good mental condition. The sun was scorching hot and that made me only more weak. I was walking on a track on which train would come from the front so that I could make it when I had to cross the track. It wasn’t actually a big deal, but when things are meant to go wrong, they go wrong against all odds.

I was in the centre track and there was one track to my right and some 3-4 tracks to my left. Andy was walking to my left and talking to me about something which I wasn’t hearing at all. I was so mentally disturbed, I couldn’t notify my presence to him (except physical). Then a strange thing happened. A train came on my left track from behind with super speed and I bent down a little on the same track I was walking on. Andy accompanied me on my track as soon as he heard of the oncoming train behind him. Just then, a train started coming on the track to my right. That track had an inline curve which made me feel as if it was going to hit me from my back. I was already in a bent position and the feeling of that train hitting me made me fall on the track. Just as this happened, a third train came on my track, from the front. I could see it as it was approaching me slowly. Andy shouted something at me from left but I couldn’t make it out. I was in a completely zombie state by then. I was still lying on the track and my mind understanding that I have to get up and move to the right to save myself. But I was so frozen and dumbstruck that my brain nerves just couldn’t make my body get up. I saw towards Andy in despair and could make out his shocked and helpless look. I saw at the train in my front and it was so close I turned frozen with death. I could only view things happening but couldn’t react to them. I went completely paralytic. It was like the feeling that you are severely wounded to ground and an anaconda is approaching you to eat, toes first. You can do nothing. I could do nothing. My brain alerted me to stay calm and get squeezed to the ground to the ultra level possible to survive the impact which I was not actually sure would be possible. The train had reached almost near my foot and whamp ……….. that was the tragic end.

Sheer dismay :-(

Now a days (read when I am weak, emotionally), I sort of miss people’s credibility and integrity.
I gaze upon the world that lurches along out there and am truly dismayed at the fundamental dishonesty and complete lack of shame and selflessness exhibited by them at every single moment which would have been truly remarkable had they been a little more sensible and logical to the universe.

But as they say, universe has got all the plans for you. So no matter what you plan for yourself, it is bound to be overridden.

But I ask, is it that difficult to deliver your commitments? I don’t think so. People just love to be selfish.

Din't I love you completely?

There was a time when you were with me
There was a time I never had to flee
There was a time when we loved each other so strong
There was a time when we promised to be together till eternity

There was a time when nothing mattered to us really
There was a time when we planned our future story
There was a time when distance meant nothing to us
There was a time when we had our open glory

But now that the times are changed
You dont love me anymore
Distance grew more than miles
There are no emotions in store
What mistake did i make
That you turned so cold to me
Why did ur love towards me diminished
Din't I love you completely?

Dil bhi jala liya humne ...

Dil bhi jala liya humne

Aur roshni bhi na hui

Tanhayee mein rehkar mar gaye hum

Aur unhe pareshani bhi na hui

Kaagaz ke tukdo ko dilse laga liya

Patthar ke lakeero ko apna bana liya

Sagar ke lehrone yeh lakeere hi mita di

Aur iski hume khabar bhi na hui

Pyaar ki rasmo ko humne pooja

Saath nibhane ki kasmo ko tutne na diya

Jis wafaa ke khatir hum jal kar raakh ho gaye

Us wafa ki toh intehaan bhi na hui.