Tujhe bhula diya .....

Kaali kaali khali raaton se hone lagi hai dosti
Khoya khoy in raahon mein ab mera kuch bhi nahi
Har pal har lamha main kaise sehta hu
Har pal har lamha main khudse kehta hu
Tujhe bhula diya
Fir kyu teri yaadon ne
Mujhe rula diya

- from the movie Anjaana Anjaani

Insomniac

Sleepless nights draw me into the vast void space which I have always been fascinated by but actually never witnessed it to such an extreme extent. And when it’s here, it’s simply terrifying. It scares the shit out of me. Tears have nowhere to go than to fall down from the eyes into the outside ocean. The body has left the soul behind long back. It’s just a mere organismic pool. It all might seem very fascinating to read but believe me it’s an awful feeling. I don’t know about it, but people call it depression. Every single thing has been affected and I am hating it. And above all what makes me feel angry and awe is the fact that I am feeling helpless. And I can’t do anything about it. I mean you don’t plan all the things in your life just to screw them at the end. Or do you? Every single time. I have been trying out hard to figure out the things. Can’t say whether I have been able to do that, but I am trying to keep my cool. I don’t know why and for what, but I am trying to do that. And I really don’t know why. I am psyched.

But I have decided to face it. I have decided to stand strong this time. No matter what it takes. I will see everything with my eyes and I don’t care what cost I might have to pay for it. But I will be there to witness it till the last moment. I have decided to rise up. I have decided to live.

Pyaar

Pyaar karke aasaani se bhul jate hai log
Aur fir hamdardi jataate hai
Lekin hame hamdardi nahi pyaar chahiye
Yeh unke kaun samjhaye
Isliye hum apne aap ko samjha lete hai
Unse nafrat karna to hamari fitrat mein nahi
Isliye hum apne aap se nafrat kar lete hai.

Difficulties

The most difficult job on the face of this earth is to fake your happiness. But sometimes you are so badly fixed up that you just cannot afford to be sad. Atleast you have to show to the world that you are happy and strong. Believe me its very difficult to show your silver lining when there is a tornado ripping up inside your heart.

But you have to face it and you have to face it alone. Because this is your life and this is your war. No one is going to support you and above all you should not expect anyone to stand by you. If they do, you are lucky. But if they don't try to be strong on your own guts.

Today you are bruised and badly hurt but a day will come when you will grow strong. Have faith in yourself and wait for that day. Have an unwavering faith in That unseen power no matter how worse the situation is. I don't know whether it would change the situation or not, but it would surely change you to get you adjusted to the changed times.

Days pass, time flies by, but memories remain. Deep down in some corner of the heart and mind you still know what you really want. It might not make sense, it might seem to the remotest thing happening to you, may be, at times the most impossible thing you can ever imagine, but think about it, feel it, imagine it. Because we have been given this power just to fulfill our dreams. Dreams which we cannot fulfill in reality.

Just give it some time and it will make perfect sense one fine day. And when that day comes, you would probably laugh at yourself. But it was worth it.

Tera Deewana

Ek pal toh mujhe dekhati sharmaayi thi aankhein
aankhon se gujarata huwa muskaan ka saaya
shaayad meri khaamoshi ne hai keh diya tumse
woh raaj jo main tumse kabhi keh nahi paaya

Kal kya hoga, ye mat socho
tum ye dekho, ki shaam ke daaman mein kya hai
madham madham si roshaniyon mein, dhun pe machalate jismon par halki si damak
lehraati huyi sandal baahein
balkhaati huyi resham julfein
ye ang ang, ye jhalak jhalak, sheeshon ki khanak
sheeshon ko chhute naazuk labj, jinme shaam ki surkhi hai
hirani si vaishi aankhon mein, anjaane se paigaam basein
ye dekhke inko behake to ilzaam kise
in lamhon ke pyaalon mein jitni masti hai
saari ki saari tum pi lo
is shaam ko ji bharke jilo
kal jo bhi hoga dekhenge

Mujhko teri aawaaz se khushboo aati hai
aur khushboo mein rang dikhaayi dete hai
tu jab nahi hai tab bhi tu hai saath mere
milon se chhute hai tujhko haath mere
woh jo teri saanson mein hai ghulein huye
kahin rahoon woh geet sunaayi dete hai
baadal, titli, kaliyaan, lehrein, phool, hawaan
ye sab tere roop dikhaayi dete hain
main hoon, tera naam hain, teri baatein hain
har pal dohraata tera afsaana hoon
mujhko to abb hosh nahin hain
tu hi bata, sab kehte hain main tera deewaana hoon

- Javed Akhtar

Pyar Karne Wale Hi Kyon?

Pyar karne wale hi
Kyon hame choda karte hai
Sapne dikhane wale hi
Kyon unhe toda karte hai

Aksar log kehte hai ki
Zindagi hasne ka naam hai
Hasi dene wale hi
Kyon fir rulaya karte hai

Gehre sagar mein se bachayi thi
Doobti hui hamari kashti
Lehron se bachane wale hi
Kyon fir dubo diya karte hai

Unhone hi sikhayee thi
Yeh ulfat-e-mohabbat
Aise log hi
Kyon fir nafrat kiya karte hai

Happy Independence Day

Happy Independence Day to all the fellow Indians on the eve of 64th Independence Day.

Today I too declare independence from all bad evils and thoughts, though not completely independent but on the verge of it, I would strive to become a better human being and give up any bad that I have, any hold-backs that I've got. I would strive harder to improve upon things I need to improve, to learn new things, and to forgive and forget all that has happened. I now breathe a deep breath of complete independence.
Jai Hind. Jai Bharat.