Nahi Jeena Bin Tere

Najaane kya dhundta hu main

Mujhe khudko nahi hai pata

Kuch kehna chahta hu main

Par kyu saare alfaaz hai lapata

Yeh waqt yeh hawa yeh khushboo

Mujhe yaad teri dilaati hai

Tum, main, sab to hai ek sapna

Jo toot jaaye to sabko rulaati hai

Pal bhar mein tu tham si gayi

Jaise meri saanse ruk si gayi

Fir yeh ehsaas hua mujhe ki main to kuch bhi nahi

Sirf teri parchaayi hoon

Jise tujhse judaa rehna hai

Mere zindagi ki hakeekat hai yehi

Isiliye shaayad darta hu sone se

Ki kahi agar neend lag jaaye to subah hogi

Aur roshnee tujhe mujhse door kar jayegi

Isi khwaaish mein jaagta rehta hu

Ki tu aaye aur yeh parchaayi sach ban jaaye

Nahi jeena bin tere yeh tay kar liya hai

Fir chahe maut ki kyu na mil jaaye!

Sometimes, things have to fall apart to make way for better things ...

Living, in itself and surviving are two totally different aspects of life. Not all people live life, they just survive it. Not that they are wrong or their way or living is incorrect. They are just not equipped with all the necessities of 'living' a life. So for the lack of any other option they just have to survive.

And it becomes very late till the time anyone could realise the damage this kind of lifestyle would have on the individual.

He is then forced to make some impossible decisions. Keeping his career weighing against his family. Most of the lives in Mumbai goes around the same path almost everyday.

We have to make many tough decisions just to support one decision we made earlier. For the sake of one ideology we need to compromise many others. For making one thing right we need to do a lot of wrong things. For making someone happy we need to hurt a lot of people. And there is a price for all these things. Its not that we are very happy about it. Its just we are not left with any other plausible option in the given situation.

Many dreams need to be shattered for the sake of one dream to come true. Many lies have to be buried so that one truth can can stand still. Many small roads have to give way so that one highway can make it all. And many things need to fall apart to make way for some more important things.

Life goes in and around and in the end we remain as nothing more than mere puppets.

Good night

When its time that sun is no more around
And moon plays with you just as a clown
Its time to say goodbye to the passed day
And keep all your worries at a bay
Close your eyes and enter the dreamland
Think about the things that you want frequent
I wish you the greatest night ever slept
And may you have wonderful dreams surrounded by silence kept

My first telescopic text

Here is the link to my first telescopic text.
http://www.telescopictext.org/text/gnl4t961ClU1q


More to come!

Yeh lafz kabhi keh nahi paayenge

Yeh lafz kabhi keh nahi paayenge
Yeh aankhein kabhi bol nahi paayenge
Hamaari saase ruk jaayengi us din
Jis din hum tumse door ho jaayenge

Saara fasaana yaad aayega
Woh hasi majaak ladai jhagde rona aur muskurahat
Jab jaaogi tum hamesha ke liye
Aur hum tumhe rok bhi naa paayenge

Ek din yeh sab kuch chodkar hum bhi chale jaayenge
Firse tumhe kabhi nahi satayenge
Fir chahe kitna bhi bula lena hame
Chahkar bhi hum kabhi laut ke naa aayenge

Happiness is not in receiving, but giving!

Hey sweetheart

I was a bull’s eye for your dart

It’s been years now that I saw you

And I liked u even before I knew

U were kind and gentle

It was me who was mental

Through all these years in thick and thin

We played games with loss and win

Buy life plays the ultimate game

And we can’t blame with anyone’s name

I agree I made u cry a million times

And so I deserved everything with heavy lines

Thanks for being such a wonderful friend

I hope you would think the same until the end

I won’t expect anything from you

All my expectations from you I would just skew

You have got a beautiful life

It shall remain so without any strife

May god bless you with all my happiness

An give your sorrows to me to harness

You will always have a special place in my heart

Until breath makes us apart

May with each coming day you get rid of your tension and illness

And become strong and more beautiful in this process

Keep smiling forever, never vent a frown

I hope there’s never a moment when you feel down

Enjoy every day to the maximum you can

To make you happy has always been my plan

Will stop my funny and irritating lines now

But I mean much more than what I said just now.

The month of mayhem

I call July - the month of mayhem. Why? Look around and you would come to know the stroll it brings to everyone and everything around - stuck railway tracks, roads with potholes, dirt everywhere, a wet and depressing look over the entire city. I mean I don’t know what happens to the Universe after the 6th month ends; it all starts to become dark.

The 26th July rains, 13th July (2011) bomb blasts and what not. Whether they have been planned in such ways or it’s the rule of nature, I have no idea, but this month certainly dampens the thoughts of fellow city dwellers.

Personally too, things start to take a sudden unexpected turn which you would have never anticipated. There is loss everywhere.

Just have my fingers crossed and pray that the period goes off soon and we see some August sunshine to cheer up the hopes and dreams.

कुणाची इतकेही

स्वप्नात कुणाला असंही बघु नये
की आधाराला त्याचे हात असावे
तुटलेच जर स्वप्न अचानक
हातात आपल्या कहीच नसावे

कुणाला इतकाही वेळ देवू नये
की आपल्या क्षणाक्षणावर त्याचा अधिकार व्हावा
एक दिवस आरशासमोर आपणास
आपलाच चेहरा परका व्हावा

कुणाची इतकीही ओढ नसावी
की पदोपदी आपण त्याचीच वाट बघावी
त्याची वाट बघता बघता
आपलीच वाट दिशाहीन व्हावी

कुणाची इतकेही ऐकू नये
की कानात त्याच्याच शब्दांचा घुमजाव व्हावा
आपल्या ओठातूनही मग
त्याच्याच शब्दांचा उच्चार व्हावा

कुणाची अशीही सोबत असू नये
की प्रत्येक स्पंदनात ती जाणवावी
ती साथ गमवण्याच्या केवळ भीतीने
डोळ्यात खळकन अक्ष्रू जमावी

कुणाला इतकाही माझा म्हणू नये
की त्याचे ' मी पण ' आपण विसरुन जावे
त्या संभ्रमातून त्याने आपल्याला
ठेच देवून जागे करावे.

Heal the words ....

One move can destroy you

The one which is wrong

To heal such wounds is very hard

And will take quite a long

Think hard what you do

Should not wreck a life

A suicide is written by its conclusions

A life ended by butcher’s knife

Something similar is what I’ve done

Never thought of the consequences so bad

It has placed me in a position

I wish I never been had

Only one move it takes

To put you in place

Right or wrong

You just need solace

Now I stand all alone

Pondering on my deeds

In this world

Where I seek sentence within weeds

Tumhare bin ...

Labon pe jo bata thi

Tumse kabhi keh na sake

Tumhare saath jeena chahte the

Tumhare bin reh na sake

What goes around, comes around

This is called ‘Karma’!

India - The New World Cup Champions!

And finally we have made it. What an amazing and electrifying atmosphere here at Marine Drive near Wankhede. The roar is breathtaking and the excitement immense. The entire nation has gone crazy. The men in blue have swarmed the entire nation totally. A standing salute to Sachin, Dhoni, Yuvraj, Kohli, Gambhir, Raina, Harbhajan, Patel, Zaheer, Sehwag, Chawla, Nehra, Shreesanth and all the other players of the Indian team. Thanks for the wonderful memory, which I am sure everyone over here will cherish for their lifetime. Thanks for the world cup and thanks for everything which we are witnessing right now. I m speechless here. More on it later.
Glory India, Glory :-)

India - Sri Lanka - CWC Final at Wankhede Stadium, 2nd April 2011!

With all the matches over, all the venues covered and all the teams wiped out, CWC 2011 has reached its grand finale. India will be playing Sri Lanka in the CWC finale at Wankhede Stadium, Mumbai on 2^nd April 2011. The fact remains that the cup will stay with the hosting Asian nation.

Sri Lanka can pose a serious threat with Dilshan, Sangakara, Jayawardena and Tharanga ruining the Indian bowling line up. Also Malinga, Mendis and Muralitharan will try to wind up Indian innings as soon as possible. India look strong too with Sehwag and Sachin in the opening batting spree followed by Gambhir, Yuvraj, Kohli and Raina. Bowling attack will be shouldered by Zaheer Khan, Patel, Harbhajan and Nehra. While Muralitharan is all set to play his last big game on Saturday, it is quite possible that Sachin, in all the likelihood, would also be playing his last ODI. These two biggies have already raised a roar in the betting market and also for the better player of the tournament. Sachin is the second leading run scorer in this tournament; only three runs behind Dilshan whereas Muralitharan is the leading wicket taker for Sri Lanka with 15 wickets.

India will try to make the best of this situation. It has got the best team since 1983, Sachin is in great form, Dhoni’s captaincy is almost unambiguous while Yuvraj, Kohli and Raina are demonstrating the true power of youth. Also, playing at their home ground will be a bit of relief for them. On the other hand Sri Lanka will fight to revive their 1996 glory for an awesome farewell to Muralitharan.

All in all, it’s going to be an action packed game with loads of heat and enthusiasm. Not to forget the pressure and tension these two nations will be subjected too.

Let the spirit of Cricket roll down through every fan’s nerve and lets witness the one of the biggest game we could ever see in the history of the World Cup.

Hail India, Hail.

Bleed Blue ...

With every passing ball of the match the picture is getting clearer. India will be playing Pakistan in the World Cup semi final which is at Mohali on Wednesday. The second semi final contestants are yet to be decided but taking into consideration the current situation of South Africa vs. New Zealand (188/5, 45.1), I guess RSA will make it to the semi finals.

For India, it was a well deserved consolidated win with mountain efforts coming from Yuvraj and Raina. Sachin and Gambhir did a splendid job of adding the scores to the board. Sachin also completed 18000 runs in ODI’s. Now, with every match he plays, there exists at least a record which stands broken or newly created by him. So, as it is normally said that this would be the last world cup Sachin would be playing, what else all Indians could dream of except for the win against Pakistan and eventually winning the World Cup?

India vs. Pakistan has been a war level match from ages. Its more than Cricket. Its more than scoring and defending. Its more than swears and bruises. India and Pakistan (and all the cricket playing nations) will witness the greatest match which every cricket lover had always yearned to see. The border clashes will be transformed onto the fields and even to the dressing rooms. Fate is undecided, but the attitude of the game is well in picture in front of everyone – heated and passionate. If we knock down the Pakis we would be entering the finals where there would be no stopping for the dreams and vows of every Indian in the entire world who would shout in one voice – Win India Win!

The entire India is ready to halt, watch, curse, abuse, bunk, off, swear and stretch the limits. The entire India is ready to get over its fear, pain, sufferings, mockeries and excuses. The entire India is ready to Bleed BLUE.

You can put the blame on me!

I am sorry to have left you all alone
I am sorry for the love so easily gone
I am sorry for the way you reacted
I am sorry for the ways that departed

I am sorry for the freak that I was
I am sorry for the misunderstandings that I parsed
How was I to know that your feelings bowed
I thought I was the perfect world that you showed

I am sorry for the feelings that went away
I am sorry for the lies that here now lay
I am sorry for making your life as hell
Now you can be happy is what I can tell

That is why I apologized to you
Else it would have been a shame on me
I was the reason for all your pain
So you can put the blame on me.

PS: The theme for this poem has been taken from Akon’s song – Sorry, you can blame it one. Read the original lyrics here. The poem in this blog post is essentially my original piece.

We are counting on you. This time, literally!

Yet another Thursday will arrive when all the Indian eyes would be glued to the television to see the fate of Indian team when they take the mighty Australia in the CWC 2011 quarter final. And there is one man for whom all the prayers will be channelized and all the swears would be taken. Yes, we are talking about Sachin Tendulkar. Somewhere deep down our heart, we feel that India would beat Australia as we are known to play the champs well. Also, we dream of a knock from Sachin similar to the Sharjah Cup when he had a killer innings from his bat.

The matter of the fact stays that India dooms down when Sachin knocks his best, but that is not all the times and there still exists times when it brings victory to India. This Wednesday needs to be such a time. All the hard work, determination, bruised body parts, ideology, thought process that Sachin has portrayed for all these years will have to bear sweet fruits of victory in this world cup. And I am sure, this is what he wants too. After virtually breaking almost every record in the history of Cricket, a world cup win is certainly a missing feather in his crown. If accomplished, he would be the king of kings. But again, it’s not his job alone. Team work has to play a very vital role in the victory.

I wish him and the entire Indian team all the best. May the best come to us, and may we see the best from him. The entire nation is bleeding, this time in blue. And the uproar will certainly have a positive effect if we transform this into a cup our nation deserves at this point of time.

All these billion people have eyes full of dreams which only you can fulfill and emotions which only you can do justice to. Do the magic and take India to the top of the world. Make us proud. Only you have that heavenly power. We all are counting on you. And this time, literally.

An evening in Paris

For all my life I always wanted to see the Eiffel Tower, I wanted to plunge into the picturesque horizon of the beautiful city, I wanted to smell its aroma and feel it within me. I always wanted to do that, for all my life. Having read of the deep and enthusiastic mysteries of this great city, my love for Paris grew with every passing moment. I felt in love with the place. The Seine river which gives the city a beautiful and romantic dusky hue, Montparnasse which makes you feel like you are part of a movie, Faubourg Saint-Honoré which is the fashion district and also home to some of the biggest fashion brands in the industry and many more other places which can skip your heart beat. But the most elusive place was the Eiffel tower. It is magnetic, charismatic and mind boggling.

One fine evening, I was totally unaware of the fact where I was heading to. I was busy with my chores as usual and had no idea what my life was going to bestow upon me. Sometimes it happens that you leave behind all your dreams from the fairyland and chase your life so spontaneously that you even forget where are you and what are you here for. But then, destiny has its own way of knocking you up (and sometimes down too) to make you realize the beauty of life, the beauty of the world. Only a few weeks in the city and I was forlorn of the fact that I was probably in the 4th greatest place in the world (I ranked it after NY, London and Switzerland). But this was going to lame upon me for only a while. I was busy talking about the meetings for the next day, planning to cover my work as fast as I could and walking fastly only over the lane when my leg hit the footpath across the street. I strangled for a moment and when I got a control of myself, I lifted my head. And what did I see, the glorious and ever shining Eiffel Tower in front of me. I was not even aware that I was in the same city.

Life's hard cores had totally drowned my wishes and dreams. But the mere look of that fabulous piece of art sent a quivering current all throughout my body as if it was an alarming call to my soul. I never felt so magical and heavenly. I never felt so powerful and relieved. It was by far the most amazing thing that has ever happened to me. Sometimes, you plan all throughout your life to achieve a particular thing. You give it your best bet, you get your part of failures and sometimes you even think of giving up. Sometimes you even do. But time has its own plan for you, like it had for me. Seeing the most beautiful thing in the world known to me, I was mesmerized and a few drops oozed down my cheeks for unknown reasons. I was more than contented only at the look of it. For years to come I was going to cherish this evening. It was 'the evening of my life'.

Main thak chuka hu

Ek din bheed mein chalte chalte achanak yeh mehsus hua ki main bhi bheed ka ek hissa ban chuka hu. Bachpan mein jo lagta tha ki main dusro se alag hu, main zindagi mein kuch alag karke dikhaunga, aaj sab jhooth lagta hai. Aaj lagta hai ki main bhi un hazaaro laakhon logon ki hi tarah maamooli hu. Maine kuch bada kaam kiya nahi hai aur aisa lagta hai ki shayad kar bhi nahi paaunga. Kayi sapne tut ke choor ho gaye hai aur jo bache hai who aaj bhi adhoore hai. Aur najaane kyu mann mein kahi yeh darr hai ki yeh saare sapne kabhi poore nahi honge. Unko poori karne ki yeh jo bhaag daud hai who najaane kyu aaj bematlab si lag rahi hai. Thak chuka hu main sabko jawaab dete dete, thak chukka hu main sabko samjhate samjhate. Aur sabse jyada main apne aap ko samjhake thak gaya hu. Ab aur naahi himaat hai, naahi hausla hai, aur naahi taakat hai ki main iss duniya se ladhu, main apne aap se ladhu. Main thak chuka hu.

Referential integrity of an entity called life

Referential integrity is needed to keep the entity as a particular and the database as a whole in synchronized state. If a primary key value of a particular table is deleted or tampered with, either the corresponding key value of the foreign table should be deleted (known as cascade) or a message should be generated and the delete operation should be stopped. If none of these steps are carried out, the database goes for a toss rendering itself completely useless.

Sounds as a simple rule in databases, right? But when applied to a larger entity called ‘life’, the database definitions start getting more complex. A column which is the primary key of a given table has necessarily undergone the polling session when it was appointed as the primary key of that table at the first place. So, that means everyone (including the table and the key selected to be the primary key) knows its importance in the bigger role and the bigger world. All the further transactions and definitions of some of the larger database tables, now depend on the definition of this table. Various static and dynamic definitions are executed and various objects are created and altered accordingly in order to fit the integrity of this entity into the whole database. There are many new entities (smaller as well as larger, some even as critical as life itself) based on the current definition of this entity.

But, when this key in being deleted (for whatever reason) from the entity, referential integrity rule should, ideally, be applied right? That means, even the other primary key values should be deleted (in a cascaded manner) or a (strict) message should be displayed that this delete operation cannot (could not is too lenient a term for database errors ) be performed. But this does not happen and the key is deleted without taking into consideration any warnings or messages or even the possible threat of a complete database crash. This ultimately results in a complete disaster leaving the database in a totally unsynchronized manner and sometimes even crashes it rendering it completely useless. Only use of this database, then would be to query junk and some reference data.

Thus it is vividly clear that even though referential integrity is a small and simple concept in databases but when it comes to a larger entity called life, it is not that simple as we/people think.