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It’s all in your mind.

This is a fantastic theory my friends; well to the most of the times, it is. When something goes wrong, or when something doesn't work up to your way, it tends to affect us because of the utter disastrous human nature (bearing in mind the fact that I believe that human beings are the worst of animate objects). But it's all in your mind that it tends to affect you to the extent it gets all f**ked up. To such a core, that all you want to do is just a simple rewind of time. But folks, life here is not a movie or a song, to fast forward or rewind. You get only a single chance to live it. So live it to the fullest and the most exciting way. One probably should never have any grudges towards his life, and if one has, believe me the best way to work it out is WORK IT OUT. You just CANNOT run from it. It's going to follow you till your grave. And as I began, MOST of the things originate because it is just in your mind. It's just a sort of baseless thought which actually does not exist. And believe me; this never-existed thought may ruin your life as if it does really exist. Simple suggestion over here would be, just DO NOT THINK MUCH. But I know it is not always possible. I face the same hurdles.

 

And the worst part comes when it is more than just being in the mind. Take it for granted you are screwed royally. You try to sort it out, work it out and you are always told that don't worry, it's all in your mind, when you f**king know that it is more than that. But you have no option left than bullying around. And believe me, there are incidents when you make an utter fool of yourself and then repent the crap that this might not had happened. But it is of no use now.

 

To sum it up, when it's all really in your mind – it's OK. And when it is more to that, well, even I am discovering to recover from that.

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When I walk beside her

When I walk beside her
I am a better man
When I look to leave her
I always stagger back again

Once I built an Ivory Tower
So I could worship from above
When I climb down to be set free
She took me in again

There’s a big
A big hard sun
Beating on the big people
In a big hard world

When she comes to greet me
She is mercy at my feet
When I see her pin her charm
She just throws it back at me

Once I dug an early grave
To find a better land
She just smiled and laughed at me
And took her bruise back again

When I go across that river
She is comfort by my side
When I try to understand
She just opens up her hands wide

Once I stood to lose her
When I saw what I had done
Bound down and flew away the hours
Of her garden and her sun

So I tried to warn her
I turned to see her weep
Forty days and forty nights
And it’s still coming down on me.

- Eddie

The 'Comparison' theory !

Hello friends, let me present before you my awesomely awful (:P) ‘comparison’ theory. According to this theory, you get to evaluate a thing to the best only when you compare things. Like you know that a coffee at Barista is good only when you drink the coffee at Mocha. Same thing happened to me lately. When in Infy, during my last days, I always thought I know enough of Unix to handle any application anywhere after a minimal study. But it was when I joined CG, I came to know that my so called talent is nowhere near to the actual talent that people usually have. So it started my quest for gaining some. I started researching, learning new things, trying new ways, concentrating harder, filling in minute details. Coz the so called ‘EXPEREIENCE’ in Infy becomes mere an ‘experience’ in CG coz everyone around here is an experienced. And that actually grew me wiser and indeed more knowledgeable (still in progress).

So, guys, to evaluate a thing or to understand something just try to compare it with the less fortunate. You will get to know that life is a lot more worthwhile that it seems to be. When I travel to office, I see people trying to save even 10 bucks for commuting and rather walk, maybe to better their home life. It makes me feel that I at least get to commute properly. I see people starving and begging for a proper meal, and it makes me feel I at least get to hog unstoppable at any given point of time. When you live a lavish life watching movies in Cinemax, eating at Mac D, sleeping in air conditioned rooms, riding in cars – just know the fact that there are many less fortunate people who have never heard of Cinemax and Mac D, who don’t know how it feels like to be in an air conditioned room. And then thank God, that He gives you an opportunity to mark the difference and then make it. An opportunity to learn, become wiser, grow intelligent.

Try the ‘comparison’ theory to get a real picture of everything you want in your life. Coz it is always the weighing pan and the opposite weights that tells you the weight of a thing. The weighing pan is you and the opposite weights are your comparators.

Only when you have been though heartbreaks, you know what is a loved heart. Only when you have seen failures you know what is success. Only when you have digested hate you know what love means.

Mistake ...

Okay yes, it’s a mistake.
I know it’s a mistake, but there are certain things in life where you know it’s a mistake but you don’t really know it’s a mistake because the only way to really know it’s a mistake is to make the mistake and look back and say, “yep, that was a mistake.” So really, the bigger mistake would be to not make the mistake because then you’d go your whole life not really knowing if something is a a mistake or not.

What more?

I have lived through much, and now I think I have found what is needed for happiness. A quiet secluded life in the country, with the possibility of being useful to people to whom it is easy to do good, and who are not accustomed to have it done to them. And work which one hopes may be of some use. Then rest, nature, books, music, love for one's neighbor. Such is my idea of happiness. And then, on top of all that, you for a mate, and children perhaps. What more can the heart of a man desire?

Feeling Useless

I sometimes dread of feeling useless towards even the minutest of creature in this universe. When I plan to do or say or think something, all I can think of influenced is nothing. Just NOTHING. It is like you deliver an awesome lecture after being invited to do the honors at some MIT or IIM or IIT in front of thousands of young students. You go on deep down your brainy process and pour in your heart in that excerpt and after all is done when it is time for you to except the much needed applause, you open your eyes and see that you are all alone murmuring with a suit on you and not even an ant to listen to you.

Its drenching me for some time now and I know not what is the exact procedure to steal my way from it.

 

Leaving Infosys - Never be a bye from me !!!

I will miss your love

I will miss your care

Things have changed

And now I don’t even dare…

 

Alls so undesirable

Alls so unhealthy

I am totally bankrupt

And all un wealthy

 

Its needless to say

I will miss you a lot

Drenched in pain

That you won’t even give a thought

 

Time spent with you

Will remain closest to my heart

I can’t forget you

Till death makes me apart

 

All apologies

For things said and done

I never meant to hurt you

I lose and you have won

 

When I am gone

There will be peace here

Hang on for some more time

The day is here

 

Can’t imagine

A life without you

You and me – friends

Stuck like a glue

 

Thanks for

Every wonderful thing

You have transformed me

Into a changed being.

 

YOU is who

I will always adore and admire

In coming life

You will be my fire.

 

Please don’t make me

Lose this friendship

I can’t walk my life

Without your companionship

 

I have seen

A brighter side of life with you

With your support and blesses

I step in future all new

 

I know you don’t like

People so sad

So I will throw apart

All the bad

 

I promise you

A true friend

And this friendship

Will never end

 

Suttebaazi

Karunga main kam

Only during partying

And not during gam

 

One last thing

I can beg you for

Smile forever J J J

And that would be more than all

 

Wont say bye

Coz i wanna see you again

On all the days

Sunny, dark or rain

 

Take care and God bless you

In all the things you say and do

Sagy is duffer and duffer is Sagy

And this is NOT AND WILL NEVER BE A BYE from me.

Leaving Infosys !!!

Giving love is doing,

And there’s always more to do.

Share with those in need,

And it will all come back to you.

For when life on earth is over

And your time to go has come,

You won’t be judged by what you have,

But by good deeds you’ve done.

So greet with open arms

Every soul you run into,

‘Cause giving love is doing,

And there’s always more to do

Oh No, Not Again !!!

At first I was afraid
I was petrified
Kept thinking I could never live
Without you by my side
But then I spent so many nights
Thinking how you did me wrong
And I grew strong
And I learned how to get along

And so you're back
From outer space
I just walked in to find you here
With that sad look upon your face
I should have changed that stupid lock
I should have made you leave your key
If I’d have known for just one second
You'd be back to bother me

Go on now
Walk out the door
Just turn around now
Coz you're not welcome anymore
Weren't you the one who tried to break me with goodbye
Did you think I'd crumble?
Did you think I'd lay down and die?
Oh no, not I


I will survive
As long as I know how to love
I know I'll stay alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give

It took all the strength I had
Not to fall apart
Kept trying hard to mend
The pieces of my broken heart
And I spent so many nights
Just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry
But now I hold my head up high

And you see me
Somebody new
I'm not that chained up little person
Still in love with you
And so you felt like dropping in
And just expect me to be free
But now I'm saving all my loving
For someone who's loving me.

PS: Song lyrics

Living without you ....

It’s hot here in the city, it always seems that way,
And I’ve been thinking about you almost every other day.
Thinking about the good times, thinking about the rain,
Thinking about how bad it feels all alone again.

I’m sorry for the way things came to an end,
I’m sorry things aren't what they used to be.
But more than anything else, I’m sorry for myself
Coz you’re not here with me.

All our friends ask about you, and I say you are doing fine.
I expect to hear from you almost any time.
They all know I’m crying, I can’t sleep at night,
They all know I’m dying deep down inside.

I’m sorry for all the things I did to you,
I’m sorry for all the things I say.
More than anything else, I’m sorry for myself.
You won't believe me anyway.

I’m sorry if I took some things for granted,
I’m sorry for the things I put on you.
More than anything else, I’m sorry for myself,
I am living without you.

(Re)Member ???

At first I was afraid
I was petrified
Kept thinking I could never live
Without you by my side
But then I spent so many nights
Thinking how you did me wrong
And I grew strong
And I learned how to get along

And so you're back
From outer space
I just walked in to find you here
With that sad look upon your face
I should have changed that stupid lock
I should have made you leave your key
If I’d have known for just one second
You'd be back to bother me

Go on now
Walk out the door
Just turn around now
Coz you're not welcome anymore
Weren't you the one who tried to break me with goodbye
Did you think I'd crumble?
Did you think I'd lay down and die?
Oh no, not I

I will survive
As long as I know how to love
I know I'll stay alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give

It took all the strength I had
Not to fall apart
Kept trying hard to mend
The pieces of my broken heart
And I spent so many nights
Just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry
But now I hold my head up high

And you see me
Somebody new
I'm not that chained up little person
Still in love with you
And so you felt like dropping in
And just expect me to be free
But now I'm saving all my loving
For someone who's loving me

Goan Hangover....

The trip to Goa has ended with countless harms and ruptures not on the body but on the minds of everyone. Planned to write every little thing in a scenic way, but couldn't yet gather all the energy to dip my mind in Goa again, and write a blog. So maybe, will take some more time to be back to senses.

 

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