Formality

Formality. What do you mean by formality? When you do a thing which you don't want to. When you say something you don't mean to. Formality can have various moods and reasons, and yeah, definitely various versions too.

One kind of formality is in my life. I would like to walk a thin line over here by terming the concept as 'formality' by saying that, I like to do this formality. Now, don't bounce back on me when I say I like it, coz it alone contradicts the basic definition of formality. But let's not get into technicalities what 'formality' actually means, yeah?

We both talk, but we don't communicate. We both chat, but we don't share. We are friends, but there's no friendship. We tell things but we seldom ask. We think about 1000 things, but we don't implement even a single thing. There's a growing space in between us. Though WE are alright, nothing seems to be alright. There's void space which is multiplying exponentially. We both can see each other, but we can't feel each other's presence.

Now here, you might think that we are holding up unnecessary, we are doing a mere 'formality', but I falsify this. Some things are forever. Some things never last. Some things never perish. Like when you take a birth, whatever organs you develop, good or bad (yes God forbid, but there are people whose birth is abnormal), you live with them until the end of your lifetime. Even after death, body perishes but soul lives on. Same way, when you get into a friendship or a relationship, its forever. No matter which tornado attacks you, you stay firm. You try to protect and shelter your loved ones, your family. Coz once you began the same friendship / relationship by saying or asking can we be friends? Now you are here to make total justice to your said words.

There are hell lot of things in this universe which go unexplained. Human brains are still not well versed enough to break the code. And that is from where comes 'belief'. When we don't know about things, we start to believe in things. And we need not do any 'formality' to say or do such things.

Same is the case with me. I still believe, one fine day everything will be alright. One day will rise which will be sunny, overcastting all the shadows and miseries from this world, from its people, from me. I still believe, blindly, in certain relationships, irrespective of whether they turned out to be good or bad, right or wrong, big or small, I believe that every relationship has a story. If you see it, it's your boon, if you don't, it's your belief. And we live in beliefs.

We, as normal human beings, tend to leave things when they are of no use. Pretty logical, but not much ethical according to me. The thing, fact, person who served us for all the time they were with us, we tend to leave them when they are of no use. Many relationships seek shelter to this fact. And I am happy that I don't do the same.

That is why I thought of writing this blog, so that I could testify practice what I preach. J

I know we both have been hurt. There were words which should not have been uttered. There were certain things which we should have understood. But having said that, just give it some time. And all will be alright. Here comes my belief again. I am happy that I am really able to devote 'that' time. I am being able to see things normalize. I am being able to see both the worlds settling down. Not for the matter of fact that we will be the same again. No. As aptly said, the cracks are always there. But at least I am making a sincere and genuine attempt to make all things alright.

I might have hurt him some time ago, he might have did the same, I might have uttered words which I shouldn't have, but at the same time I take power even to apologize to him that I was wrong. At the same time, I take guts to follow him that he needs time. At the same time, I am true to myself that I never thought anything bad for him. I am true to my inner being. May be things would not turn up, may be we are never the same again, and may be I have lost a beautiful friend. But I am happy I made an attempt. Infact several attempts. An attempt which was much beyond any 'formality', any accusation.